Divorced. My fault, and cant move forward

[Mrs D]

Thanks Cadet for the hugs. So this morning Im on my way into town because I had a court appt for a speeding ticket. My Son is with me, because then we have to head the other direction so I can go to the office to work. He of course doesnt like going to the sitter, and its raining - so I tell him to call his Dad to see if he can hang out with him today if he isnt working. (he works construction) Well my Son told him we were headed to town - my ex then asks to speak to me. Course hes telling me
that I need to ask for court supervison, yada yada. Hes already told me this before. WHY does he continue to make me weak. Ive told him my T told me no contact. LOL IDK - maybe he is confused and really just wants to make me better before letting the walls start to crumble.. I just get frustrated, over analyzing everything. Going back to detaching once again.. Wish me luck...