On a slightly more serious note. I need to ask myself why it’s hard for me to have a light conversation with W. It’s not like I am a introvert, far from it. Have any of you struggled with this? I think I know PART of the answer. First, I am an emotional SOB and it’s our anniversary. It wouldn’t take hardly anything for me to lose my composure and start crying like a little sissy. I believe my W wants a strong confident man and to start shedding tears isn’t something I was prepared to do. Also there’s a wall between W and I. We feel like strangers in a way. I didn’t know what to talk about with her! It just seems like the slightest wrong word out of my mouth could cause some issues and I don’t want that. I don’t get many opportunities of this nature, this light chit chat stuff isn’t easy for me.
Rough: First let me start with don't beat yourself up over this interaction. Did you miss an opportunity? I dont have any idea, i can tell you that in my view at least right now any conversation/interaction that isn't bad...is good.
And I wanted to tell you that at least for me, its incredibly nerve wracking to have a conversation with my W right now...and i agree it gets a little easier each time, but its tough b/c you want to make sure every word is correct and we all know thats nearly impossible. Also, and yours sounds alot like mine....when i walk up and the conversation starts im never quite sure what her mood is going to be. I know mine is going to be kind and upbeat....but somedays she matches that and other days she seems to be ticked off that im breathing.....so don't worry about it just keep doing what you do, and if you miss one opportunity another will come along.
