Busy finish to last week as well as the weekend....B was successfully married off and I think everything went great. Had a great time with W and kids, and it was pretty awesome to see all the family.
We took S13 & D11 to our church's youth kickoff last night and I took the kids around while W worked on a volunteer project. I talked to the pastor about doing some volunteering, one of the things I have been thinking about for some time. This is one of the things I think W is really happy about.
No change on the M front with me....W is still staying here, sleeping in same bed, ML regularly. No discussion of moving out or R. Touching seems to be increasing....W asking me to hold her hand or cuddling with me, so that's good. W is around a lot more now than in the last year, so again, that's positive.
For me, I am trying to stay upbeat and happy, enjoying time with W without applying pressure or guidelines/requirements, and trying to get out and do a few things for myself. We missed retrov Sat due to the wedding, but got an email today about a couple of opportunities to participate in the coming weeks. I may mention them to the W this week at some point if I can do it without appearing to apply pressure.
We're kind of in a happy limbo at the moment. I would love to have some R talk, to start dialoguing again, to "fix it!" But I realize my W's timetable is not the same as mine, and when she's ready, she'll let me know. And really, a happy limbo ain't all that bad
