My emotions are running full force. I guess this is what love can do to a person. Called S this morning and W answered the phone. Since I blew it the other day I challenged myself this morning in an attempted to have some light conversation with W before I spoke to S. While it was brief, it was good for me. It’s like anything else, the more you do it, the better you get. It’s been a while since we’ve had light conversation. I might make an attempt at it a bit more often however I feel vulnerable in a way, my guards up and keeping it all business has been my standard operating procedure.
W took the initiative to get S on the phone so you could say W ended the conversation first. This is what happens when I put myself out there. Opening up a bit isn’t easy for me. There’s been two attempts at light conversation. Once on our anniversary and this morning. BOTH times W has to bring up finances, go figure. It’s like an obsession for her, it’s always on her mind. I swear it’s like the only thing she thinks about. It’s quite annoying. I am thinking it might be better to go back to my basic method. Just keep it all business and mirror W. If she wants to have light conversation, then I will reciprocate however next time I think I will be a bit more prepared if it comes up. Part of me just shouldn’t care about this type of nonsense that I am writing, but I do! I am analyzing every freakin interaction.
I want to say hi to Acc, Carnac, Denver, Bond, Arsene and everyone else on this board. I hope all of you are doing well. Bond, the way you write reminds me of a lawyer friend of mine. My guess is that you took the bar at one time. Just for itches and giggles does anyone know if my hunch is right?
