Hello Faithnomore. Sorry to see your in this situation. Your story is close to mine about wife not saying how unhappy they were for years and now it's too late and not worth fighting for. My W is going through MLC and moved out in Oct. and has filed for dissolution. I have good days and bad days still. I wish I could say it's going to be easy but it's not. GAL is a must or else you will go insane. Sounds as if you go to church continue doing that it helps lift me up when I down. Sounds like your wife still goes mine does the same from time to time and even sits with me. But she still doesn't want to hear some of the messages some were really good about second chances and and I thought they would hit home but no such luck. Do your best to stick with what the book says. Things will get better for you. I'll be praying for you.