a new perspective

[strongerthanever]

I did good. H came to pick up our daughters this morning. I was strategic in that the front door was unlocked and both girls were sleep in my bed. I woke up to him in the room, looking at us in the bed together, a scene he would not want to walk away from.

Hook line and sinker. I could tell he wanted to crawl in with us. He kept looking at me in my pjs commenting on how good I looked. He kept grabbing and flirting with me. I stayed "sleepy" and focused on the girls.

He came up with excuses to stay...wanting a drink, needing to use the bathroom...looking at me and just starting.

The girls didn't want to go at all. I could see his sadness. And then something weird, he stutterer. Not like a mix up of words, I mean like a brain injury stutter. I was giving the girls kisses and he just couldn't get his words out.

He developed this back in March, after I walked in on him and ow. It lasted a month, and then went away. His doc said it was a psychological block from stress. Interesting that in that moment this morning it came back.

All in all I did good. Now to get use to being without my girls for the week