PS there are times when a spot of random fornication and general irresponsiiblity sound like quite a lot of fun!!
Beatrice, I'm LMAO! You're so right!
IB, I have felt the very same way at times.
As far as the financial aspect...Sweetie, you just got done throwing your D an awesome wedding, your S a grad party, plus getting him ready for college. It's no wonder your funds are depleted. Do whatever you need to do to get back on track.
Please stop being so hard on yourself. You are an amazing woman!