I think I see the picnic!

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I think I have a better idea of what detaching is now. I don't feel as angry as before. And I'm still willing to continue DB. I realized that I don't need to be angry to detach. That's a reaction not an action.

I am able to see my future (whatever it may be) with content and some eagerness. I'm not afraid anymore. I know my kids and I will be ok (and so will H).

I'm still sad but not as disappointed. When I hear or learn of something that used to bring me down for days it doesn't affect me as much. I'm still hurt and disappointed but I see things clearer now. More objectively.

I continue to go with the flow. Not working at controlling my sitch but allowing my higher power to guide me. I have more tools to continue on my journey. That's a good thing. The more tools the better.

Today H stopped by to see the kids before he went on a hike with friends. I'm so glad he went on this hike with this group of friends. It's what the old H used to do. Before I would've been upset because he wouldn't see the kids all day but now, I think it's important he takes these outings. The kids will see him bright n early tomorrow and in the afternoon.

I went to my future SILs bridal shower. It was nice, real nice. I had a good time. Did a 180 on my family and gave them all a hug before I left. If I do with with my friends and in laws, why not with my own family???!!