Needing some guidance... 5

[jks]

Just wanted to say "thank you" to everyone for the loving support I'm getting here. I feel like as soon as anything good or bad happens to me, you are all the people I want to share it with first.

I start training tomorrow and I couldn't be any more thrilled right now. Life has been really good to me lately. Things are finally making sense. And none of it really has to do with H, that's the craziest part.

I was talking to a friend tonight and I was telling her that I don't remember being this happy. It's been a long time. And I feel like I can see happiness with my H but if he doesn't ever want to come join me on my fun adventure then I can totally see myself being happy with someone who shares my same views on life.

The best part about it is, I'm not worried about it anymore. Whatever will be, will be. This job is the greatest opportunity to open up so many more doors for me that I can look forward with 100% confidence that things will be good.

I went to church today and just soaked in all of the lessons and felt so spiritually enlightened. I then came home and made a fun lunch with my D6. She was so proud of herself for making it and ate it so fast because she loved it so much. Normally she would whine and complain that it looked gross or that she just wanted peanut butter and jelly. It was a major positive moment for us.

Then H came to pick up the kids and I was genuinely happy. When he left the sadness was only very little and I got over it quickly. The thoughts of what busting said fills my head a lot lately... I want to rest easy at night knowing that I handled my life with grace.

This may sound kind of weird but I have this ring that I've been wearing for a long time. I recently decided to name it "grace" so that it could be my constant reminder to live it. Something I could physically look at and remember where my head and my heart should be. (anything to keep me motivated!!)

Good night, friends!