When we used to talk about sex and being affectionate, I told her I just didn't think about it. It wasn't that I didn't love her or didn't care. I just really didn't think about it. One time she told me that she wouldn't even care if I had to put it on a calender or send myself an email as long as I could find a way to think about it. That sounded so staged to me. But now I think that it would have been better than not doing it at all. I know it would have been better.
