I haven't checked with the Dr no but I am pretty sure it is all because I don't know for sure if he's telling the truth. Just as you describe I cannot bare it when he even puts his hand on my shoulder during a conversation .
He doesn't work away now no, he hasn't done for about 19 months now. I'm pretty sure nothing has been happening since that time it is just the fact that I don't know what is real or a lie from before.
You're right, I question myself every day and am constantly thinking that it is just too broken, or rather I am just too broken hearted to fix this anymore, I think maybe he has just let me down once too often but I am scared of anything else I suppose.
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