Today has been real hard to cope with. I miss my W very much, I feel like calling her just to hear her voice. I am not going to do it, I know it will not do any good.
I been reading DR again, and it feels good that I am here to fight for the person I love. It is just one of those days that I can´t stop thinking about her. I have been fighting this feeling quite often, when I start to think about her, I go and change my thinking, but her image keeps appearing.
I been thinking on why she can not see all the hurt that we both are going thru. Friday in the morning when we were talking about our feelings we both cried. I know she is hurting as much as I am. I feel tempted to have her read DR and see for her self what we both are going thru. I know this is a DB big NO, and I am not going to do it. I believe it would be easier for the both of us to work in our R. Like I said it is just my belief..
I have read so many succesful stories in which things work out for the better and they make it as a couple again. I feel reasured that I can do that too, but I also feel afraid we won´t be on these stories. I know succesful stories can also be of no reconsiliation, and that success will be in my own person. I do understand that and that I will be ok either way. I just prefer my success is when my W and I are happy together again working on our relationship and family..
I have been praying to my Lord God for this to happen..
