So XH is on to GF#2 - to describe her would be a blonde me. She is a professional, loves swimming, has one son, owns a home....seems normal. So, the pain is different from GF#1 - who was just WRONG in every aspect.
Anyway, what does it really matter? He's gone and he's not mine. He has moved on and has had multiple opportunities to "start over." Me - I've been working the last 2+years "finishing" parenting our son and trying to keep things together for the other kids.
So, what's wrong with me? I don't know why this anger keeps surging - I feel like it all has been so easy for him and so difficult for me. I'm fed up with it! I actually had a dream last night of him leaving me and I woke up crying!!! It has to stop! But the embarrassment, the humiliation just keeps surfacing!
What am I doing wrong?
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time