Ok, don’t laugh. Well, you can make fun if you want, that’s ok. I was just rockin out to Just The Two Of Us by Will Smith. Great lyrics!
On a slightly more serious note. I need to ask myself why it’s hard for me to have a light conversation with W. It’s not like I am a introvert, far from it. Have any of you struggled with this? I think I know PART of the answer. First, I am an emotional SOB and it’s our anniversary. It wouldn’t take hardly anything for me to lose my composure and start crying like a little sissy. I believe my W wants a strong confident man and to start shedding tears isn’t something I was prepared to do. Also there’s a wall between W and I. We feel like strangers in a way. I didn’t know what to talk about with her! It just seems like the slightest wrong word out of my mouth could cause some issues and I don’t want that. I don’t get many opportunities of this nature, this light chit chat stuff isn’t easy for me.
I really wish we could all go out to dinner or do anything as a family. That would be a bit more comfortable. Especially to have our kids with us, that would lighten things up. That would feel slightly more comfortable but I don’t have that option and I won’t be asking.
I will chalk it up as an ok day. I am sure W will be getting all bent out of shape over the next couple days, for whatever reason she decides to come up with. Who cares though, that’s her issue.
I need to remember that it’s a good thing W is acknowledging our anniversary. I thanked her for inviting me out to the balcony and then I left.
