PF, I actually relate to many of the things you say. I gave up some of my career for X, too. I now see that that was a mistake and in the past few years I focused on myself and my own work. And you know what? It feels really good!!
You sound really hyper (which we all understand here) and overwrought. What can you do to calm down, detach and start looking at your own situation as it relates to YOU and what YOU want?
The advice about FB and Twitter--don't stop looking at it for him. Do it for youself. It sounds like it just upsets you. So don't do. Block him if you need to.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D