It's nice you are able to logically see the past. At the time you were very unhappy, it sure didn't feel good though. Was he not tender or complimentary and you really needed that? Just guessing.
If your H can come around and accept himself and you and a new R, it seems like it would be great!
But you are right....just have to get on with things. Weekends seem the worst for me. At least Saturdays do. I still desire so much to know what my H is doing and I have to get away from that.
I had some periods of intense unhappiness with H in the past too. Like when his MIL was living with us after his sister died. I blamed H for her bad behavior. If we could only change the past.... Sigh. I guess that's the point of now...we can only change our present.
Need some of the lighter side of MLC today.....
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway