MrBond-I am terribly sorry I missed that question and only now saw it. Am I carrying turmoil? Perhaps, I would expect so. It does not usually come out. As to our daughter, I am at peace with knowing that she is in heaven, no longer in such pain, comforted by God as only he can do, and will be there when I get there someday so I will be with her again. She is alive in my memories and in my heart and mind. As to my first ex-yes turmoil there likely but I did not know until the similar circumstances came up with Him-meaning the violence. I know I react poorly to threats, bullying, and intimidation because of the past. It is where the anger comes from. Counselor gave me time to vent my anger and methods to deal with it and the frustration. She said I had been through a lot and just needed time to process constructively. Why stop? Job transfer to a new area and a much more sensitive security level. The Counselor felt this was Ok to stop since I was moving on with my life and no longer so angry.
