Well I made the trip to Costa Rica with W for her family's wedding. I had fun didn't talk about relationship while I was there and was even level headed. Things that would have pissed me off in the past I let go. W actually let me sleep in room with her and our son. I thought for sure the hammock was mine for the week. W is still the same all she worried about was texting her friends and facebooking the whole time. The wedding was nice but also hard to watch knowing my divorce is coming soon. I thought maybe just maybe W would hear the message and possibily have second thoughts. Of course I knew that was slime to none since she has been showing up at church lately and sitting with me and they have has awesome messages about second chances and testomies about spouses who were at their break coming back together because one spouse was loving enough to stay by there side. Even that doesn't get through to her.
So less than a week back and she delivers me the updated dissolution papers for divorce since the last ones I didn't agree with and asked for a few changes to be made. After she gives them to me she says I say we plan a date with S at the new Japanesse resturant that will be opening up in town here in the next few months. (In the back of my mind im thinking are you serious your handing me divorce papers and you want to plan a date night?) Do you think W said that to make me or actually her feel better about handing me the divorce papers?) I would actually like nothing more than to do it but when and where do I draw the line and quit being her friend and start showing her how life without me is truly going to be like. I not saying Im going to treat her bad in any way but it seems that W wants the best of both worlds her freedom which she already has but some what of her family life when she wants it. Is there any chance for me after a divorce? How do others think I should handle this? HELP!
