if there's one thing that totally completely and utterly uplifts me is to see a kickass older woman (as in over 70) just bringing the house down. and when we got there, i got a real kick out of the fact that not only was it a blues bar, but a biker's bar. no i'd never been in one of those either. i even charmed the big ole' guy at the door stamping my hand.
wanda was amazing - and the sweetest woman too, really kind and loving.
she was actually really unwell tonight and her throat was really bad - but she was so amazingly gracious about it, that the crowd was cheering her on even more. in spite of that, it was amazing to see this woman still belting it out - she was fragile though. i just sat there watching her in awe with this HUGE smile on my face, like WOW - i wanna be like that!!
i didn't really know much about her - turned out she used to date elvis before he made it big.. and also i had no idea that my friend who invited me to go - her dad used to be Wanda's manager years ago.
so it was a real rock n roll night and i felt really really good.
i saw how far i have come - in being nonjudgmental, having patience and just being kind. we picked up my friend's old friend on the way out - she made me drive 50 mph on the highway where it was 75. the old me would have been really pissed - the new me smiled and took it as an opportunity to practice patience!!
then while we were hanging out she told me how she'd been the WAS on her h 10 yrs ago (how does this [censored] happen to me always??/), and didn't talk about him very nicely - actually sounded quite disdainful. i just sat there kindly and let her talk and didn't say anything. the old me would have started giving her the "info". i was like - hey - there's all sides...it disturbed me a little to see how off hand she was. i asked her if she was in a relationship right now, and she said she'd had several bf's but didn't look too happy. oh well...
so it's late and i better get some z's
tomorrow's the family thingummy - don't really care to go, but i suppose i should to be there to celebrate with h's grandparents. i do love and admire them hugely. luckily h let me know that he's off playing golf all afternoon, so i can go hang out with all the "women and kids" who are so fun to be with. he brought up driving there and asked if i had a ride - i said i hadn't decided when i was going and hadn't talked to anyone. we left it that we'd talk in the morning - so the 3 of us might be riding in together!! i would like to go later on my own - but it's 2 hrs round trip and i don't really need to be wasting the gas money right now.
so KD - i know i still need to answer to your post - but i think i'll work on that tomorrow.
hope you are all well, i'm banking on the energy of this great evening, to float me through the following days.
so i'm on the blanket with you guys now, and i didn't even trip over any of the turtles on my way there
(((((( ))))))) zig
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
