Emotion wise I have been all over the place for the last 5 months! Has any of you wanted to just give up and throw in the towel early on??
I am trying to detach as much as I can & keep it to just txt/contact about the kids, but I won't lie and say it hasn't been an internal struggle. Part of me wants to just give up and let her go her own way. Another part of me wants this to work out so we can get back to being the family that we once were, but better!
I have truly spent too much time since the beginning pursuing & whining, which definitely didn't help. Now that i have read DR & found the board, along with you guys, I am ready to get to some serious DBing.
Denver,
I am 100% positive that my actions weren't cool and uncalled for, but I can't go back and do it over. I have asked for forgiveness & have apologized more than enough thus far for my shortcomings. I have truly owned up to it & have not defended myself one bit.
I do need advice on the "D" however! She has retained an attorney & hand delivered paperwork to me on my B-Day last week, but it didn't have any case number assigned to it. What she stated is that she wanted to mediate this out of court and not drag things through the mud due to the children. I have had the paperwork now for 1 week and have reviewed it thoroughly. I am not sure how long I can drag it out before I respond or give it back to her because it hasn't officially been filed with a case number. Georgia & county law states that you have 30 days to respond if it's been filed, but this hasn't truly been filed. I don't want this and told her that I will not assist in the process. Funny thing is, that I paid for her lawyer when she skimmed the bank account to pay for it.
I have made my changes to the paperwork in pencil & want to give it to her to take back to her lawyer to redraft with the changes. If she does, & has her lawyer redraft with my changes, then I will review and see if any more changes need to be made. Funny how they ask for everything on the initial paperwork, like we are gonna be cool with it. She hasn't said anything about it, but she did say when she dropped it off that she expected me to take more time than is needed to read/respond & give back to her. Such high regard & confidence she has in me...LoL... I consider myself a very intelligent person and she knows this, as she considers me intelligent too, so I know that she probably never expected me to sign & agree to what she had her lawyer type up. I honestly would probably sign the paperwork if her/lawyer accepted my changes! Not sure that would help my situation, but it would give her what she thinks she wants at this moment.
A lot more thoughts in my head to post, with a lot more advice needed, but I don't want to inundate ya'll with too much rambling/babbling at once...
