So my H never came home today after work (6am) and has not called. He has made it a habit to go to the lakefront to see the sun rise, but that only accounts for 30 min lost.
He has only done this once before since his MLC (or ever) and it was last minute work (he's freelance).
The 5pm local news was reporting how the lake is very choppy and all beaches are closed. His one and only attempt to hurt himself was by jumping into the lake, into an undercurrent last yr.
He left here in a "good for him spirit" but I still worry. My one question will be answered tonight when he is due at work by 10pm. His boss would call if he doesn't show up.
I feel stupid worrying....and irresponsible not.
I tried to fill my day with my kids, keeping busy, calling the school about transcripts for myself and now it's that lonely time.
That time when it's Fri. and the kids have a life, the H is probably off GAL, and I'm home alone with the dog, tivo, and my computer.
It's so against my nature not to know where every member of my family is hanging out.
My H hung out with me so that was never a concern.
God willing he walks into the house tom. morning, how do I react to his full day absence.
I have to be nice, give him a pleasant person to come home to, look good in my PJ's, don't ask were he's been?
This is truly a test of myself!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
