Since I am being honest and sharing with the world-you want to know the other sick part of this? On some level, I fear for the safety of the little girl. She has no idea what is coming, and I would take her place in that if I could. At least I do not personalized this stuff as much and will not resort to suicide attempts like she has in the past. She has her own mental issues with depression and such and is just not equipped to deal with what is coming her way especially since I am not speaking to him so he has no outlet for his anger other than her now. In some ways she is at major fault in this and in other ways she is just collateral damage. Additionally, he went to see his father today. The only other time in 25 years he saw dad was when I insisted he face him 5 years ago. He really hates the man, has depersonalized him totally, and acts as though they have nothing in common and are not related-no love for him at all. He talked to me about the upcoming visit and was flat in affect about the visit. A day with him is going to make honey testy and on edge so if she says one wrong thing on the tele his going to go crazy on her if he even tells her about the visit.
