can Turtles still stand?

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i read your words last night and you are so right , stronger.

and i saw how i project my worst fears to the future, and i simply decided to STOP doing that. it keeps me in a really bad place.

and you're right about what if the conversation hadn't taken place - it's food for thought and when i read your words that it took me off the blanket - i realized you were right. i thought i was reacting to the recent development, literally , but i was reacting to the chaos

i couldn't quite see till i read what you wrote.

today has been a good day for me - really focused on my work and felt quite peaceful and positive about my life. also excited about going out tonight.

wasn't expecting any contact whatsoever from h, but he and s stopped by a couple of hours ago - and i just decided to be delighted to see my boys when i didn't expect to - sort of a bonus to my day

i could see h was very stressed and trying like hell to hide it - so i gave him a warm friendly loving hug and tons of hugs to s. s usually is quite reserve physically around me in front of h - but he hugged and hugged me.

i think they are both feeling my abscence there

mil stopped by in the afternoon to pick something up, and she told me that it was pretty tense and miserable there - and h was the most tense and snappy out of everyone. he'd been snapping at her all day!!

i'm so at my picnic - i could feel both mil and h relax at my house - it's safe here!!

off to have a ball

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zig