Sorry to unload on you all but it is so hard right now. On top of him being raving crazy right now, it will be the 7 year aniversary of the death of our daughter in a few days. It will also be the first time I have had to be alone to honor her. I know he will not be around as he commented the aniversary was coming up, but I told him not to worry about it as I would get the flowers for her and take care of honoring and remembering her. He looked so relieved. Sometimes it feels as though carrying the world on my shoulders is getting very heavy. I know God is supposed to only give us what we can manage but really I am starting to wonder if God has not miscalibrated with my situation right now. Sorry God, I don't mean to doubt you, but I am having trouble making the knot in my rope this week.
I always tell people, "sometimes it's not god, it's the devil" so you should bear only what you are willing to bear... Do not be taken advantage of because you love somoene.
