Piecing - Round 1

[Denver_2010]

So kind of a rough day for me

Oh...you poor dumb bastard.

THAT got me laughing out loud for a good 3 or 4 minutes Jack! Thanks!

That was a long time ago. Look at the dates. And KNOW that is NOT how she feels right now.

You know better now. Not to do that...not that. I believe there is a huge difference in verifying trust, and looking fo pain.

You found pain.

You got ways and means to talk if you need to. BUT this will pass. This is a bad dream past things ok? It's not the here and now...

You need help with this, that was how she felt back then its...good insight even if you feel like your picking up your entrails off the floor.

I'm okay. Seriously. It made me sick to my stomach for a couple of hours, but I quickly recovered by thinking and knowing exactly what you said. That that is not how she feels now. That it is the past.

I do believe that it is good information. Like I said to Starsky, knowing is understanding.

Besides, it really isn't new information. She's told me this is how she felt. It was just hard reading those words knowing how sad, empty and lost that she must have felt when she wrote them. I NEVER intended to make her feel like that. It hurts to know that I caused her that kind of pain. But, again, knowing is understanding... and I will make sure to never do that again.

Going through what I have, has made me understand what "to cherish" your W means. I've had to face, and accept that I did not cherish her, love her like she deserved... and I've had to forgive myself for that.