Time for an Introduction...and Thanks

[figure-it-out]

Thanks GW,
So we are set to meet tomorrow to begin our "settlement" negotiations after he gets off of work.
He appears so desperate to get out that he is willing to give me anything/everything. And at this point I'm inclined to take it.

I am I think going to push for some type of "morality clause" not allowing our one minor child access to the home he currently shares with ??? We only told our kids 3 weeks ago that we're divorcing after him being out almost 2 years. At this point they both believe he still lives with his mother. I question my wanting to protect them to just allowing them access to what is actually happening. Part of me is still trying to not let them see my H in a bad light. Crazy considering everything he has done.
I am slowly coming to the point where I know I will be divorced. I have struggled so hard against this. Made mistakes with bargaining and begging in the beginning. Read DR, Love Languages, Co-Dependent No More. Followed the 37 rules...and it's still happening. I know there was never a guarantee but I wanted so badly to avoid this outcome.
I somtimes wish this were more acrimonious. That I knew without any doubt he was sure and truly done with our marriage. But then he'll say something in regards to what he wants to do to fix up "our" house or speaks of things happening in the future and I have this slight hope. He is living with someone but hiding her, why. If he is so much happier why hide it?? Why drag this out for 2 years while still spending every holiday together as a family? Ugg, it's maddening and I know there's no answer. It just "is" and I will deal with that.
So I guess the settlement and what appears to be the inevitable outcome are finally upon me. I will protect my children and myself. I will close the door as they say but not lock it.
Thank you to those that have replied. I have been here forever but have not participated very much. I think that has set me back an not allowed me to move forward as much as I should/could have. One of my goals is to become more active on the boards. I have received much help over these past 2 years.