W went out last night again, she had made plans with her sisters and cousins to go out. At least that is what she said, she came back right now at 6:00 am. I really believe she is seen OM again. The reason I believe this is because I am seeing the same behavior on her as when we first split up. Being distant, avoiding any conversation with me, looking at her phone repeatedly. I do not know if she is having any contact with him or not, I just feel she is.
I was leaving home to come to work and she asked if I something was wrong with me, why would she ask that? Is she feeling guilty about something? I said, that since she was asking if something was wrong, I said that our relationship was wrong, that I could not see how she was trying to save our relationship if she was always negative to do something for us. She told me again, that she cares and has feelings for me, but that she did not love me like she used to. She said that it was the reason she told me days ago that she missed us the way we were. Make sense to me, anybody, please. I said, well If that is how you feel then why did you ask me to come home, why did you tell me you are my family and that you wanted to work things out. She answered that it was a mistake for her to have done that because it was too soon.
I guess I am not ready for DB, I keep on doing things wrong. I am tired and see no hope on saving my relationship. Please, give advice on how you guys dealt with these emotions when you felt like throwing the towel and just walk away. I love my wife, and want to continue working on my relationship, I know patience is a virtue and I am working on it. The problem is that I am moving real slow to get confident on my self and W.
