New to DB

[hopefulinga]

Minor changes in the routine last night when I got home from teaching. H waited for me to get home, but went inside before I got in the door. He was still in the kitchen. Not reading too much in to it.

I did write him a letter yesterday and I don't know if he read it and he will never admit to it. But I feel a lot better and I think it will help me move on. In the letter I acknowledged the changes that I needed to make and what they would look like. No R talk. He will not go to MC. I did mention SBT and told him I would appreciate it if he would take a look at it, but if not, that was fine too. I also told him I would no longer focus on our past, the mistakes we both made and that I was moving forward with my life.

Off to DC in a little bit. I am excited and nervous. I am also afraid that I will not want to come back home. I love DC and always imaginged living there. It is so exciting to me. I used to be a political animal (I intered as a lobbyist in college), H not so much.

I try to look at each day as if it were the first day of the rest of my life, which I guess it is.