Grace, Love, Compassion, & Faith - Looks Like What

[Valeska19]

The decision has been made. I cannot take it back... and when I'm thinking straight - I would not want to.

Val, take a breath...and then take another.

YES YOU CAN TAKE IT BACK...if you want...and if she wants.

You can stop the paperwork OR Better yet,

create a whole new r and marriage--IF YOU BOTH WANT TO...

and if not, then so be it. You knew THAT marriage had ended....awhile back.

Key word being "and". Right now I'm alone in not wanting to be done. I can accept that.. but because there is no "and" I feel no need to hold up the process any longer. It's beginning to feel like I am being held back instead.

I know I am still not done. I still do not want the D. But it is out of my hands.

If I believe that God wants his best for me.. than this is it. I don't have to like it.. [b]I don't have to understand it.

I just have to believe it to be true.


OR that it can change!!!!..so very little is written in stone...

I know that things can change.. too much has happened in the last year for me to believe otherwise... and I do mean GOOD changes.

what if you breathe a sigh of relief? What then? What if the sadness ends and you are healthier and happier?

Would that be alright too? (Oh, btw, the answer is YES)

I feel this is quite possible. In some ways I actually fear it. I fear what I might feel after the feeling of relief. Crazy isn't it?

There is much work to be done in a week.

Hey you aren't God....of course there's more work to be done - and after that some more!...life's that way my friend.

but You, I KNOW, will be more than alright.

YOU, I KNOW, will thrive oh so soon.

I for one, can't WAIT to see your progress in the coming months!!

Thank you very much! I really appreciate you saying that!!

Speaking of you - How are you doing? Has your H deployed yet?