Grace, Love, Compassion, & Faith - Looks Like What

[25yearsmlc]

I'm 99% locked on signing the papers on the 18th of August. W already said she was available and I agreed.. I'm making the commitment to not take work on that day.

It was very weird. I've had this urge to just get out of limboland but it is always overcome by fear. I had a moment today where the fear subsided.. so I took advantage and jumped.

The decision has been made. I cannot take it back... and when I'm thinking straight - I would not want to.

Val, take a breath...and then take another.

YES YOU CAN TAKE IT BACK...if you want...and if she wants.

You can stop the paperwork OR Better yet,

create a whole new r and marriage--IF YOU BOTH WANT TO...

and if not, then so be it. You knew THAT marriage had ended....awhile back.





I know I am still not done. I still do not want the D. But it is out of my hands.

If I believe that God wants his best for me.. than this is it. I don't have to like it.. I don't have to understand it.

I just have to believe it to be true.


OR that it can change!!!!..so very little is written in stone...

I am coming up with a gameplan. I will figure out how to DB yet protect myself. I will figure out how to show the best Val w/o the expectations of something from her.

Sounds good Val!!!

I will accept that no matter the interactions or the outcome, I will be SAD that day.

Okay- so you can be sad...we all have been sad, and God knows YOU have been sad....but

what if you breathe a sigh of relief? What then? What if the sadness ends and you are healthier and happier?

Would that be alright too? (Oh, btw, the answer is YES)


There is much work to be done in a week.

Hey you aren't God....of course there's more work to be done - and after that some more!...life's that way my friend.

but You, I KNOW, will be more than alright.

YOU, I KNOW, will thrive oh so soon.

I for one, can't WAIT to see your progress in the coming months!!