I'm 99% locked on signing the papers on the 18th of August. W already said she was available and I agreed.. I'm making the commitment to not take work on that day.
It was very weird. I've had this urge to just get out of limboland but it is always overcome by fear. I had a moment today where the fear subsided.. so I took advantage and jumped.
The decision has been made. I cannot take it back... and when I'm thinking straight - I would not want to.
I know I am still not done. I still do not want the D. But it is out of my hands.
If I believe that God wants his best for me.. than this is it. I don't have to like it.. I don't have to understand it.
I just have to believe it to be true.
I am coming up with a gameplan. I will figure out how to DB yet protect myself. I will figure out how to show the best Val w/o the expectations of something from her.
I will accept that no matter the interactions or the outcome, I will be SAD that day.
There is much work to be done in a week.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
