Divorced. My fault, and cant move forward

[Mrs D]

MrB,
Yes - I have been out of contact with the trainer for about 4 or 5 weeks. My XH does know that I am no longer in contact, but he doesnt believe I wont go back to being in touch with him. Ive deleted his email address, his phone number, I dont train with him any longer. I even deleted my FB account just to show how focused I am at making this work.

Yes, I am seeking therapy. I have alot of issues, one not forgiving myself for the affair. Course it all stems back from my mother having an affair on my Dad. I loathe her as a person, and I find myself no better than her. Part of my homework for next week was to actually go to my XH and tell him Im letting him go. That the only contact I will have with him will be only of our son. It was hard. So today was the first day of NC. It truly [censored], but I know I have to do this to get my self healthy first.