MLC with depression....double the fun!

[albamarie]

Ok, so I didn't have a good morning today. His words brought me down and I needed to work through them.

My H is the financial back bone of this family...he and I agreed the kids would be home with me.

Well, their all out of high school and I wasn't going to stay home , but look into something work wise or going back to school.

I felt this rush of needing to get to work and support myself now.

H explained he's not moving out or leaving me, (he never spoke D after that one time) and I should take my time and work on my plans.

He said nothings different except that he's a little wakadoodle (that's all) and he is not the "happy go lucky family man" he used to be. Oh, and his friends I HATE are still in his life.

H swears he's not having an FA nor has he since last winter. He claims not to want to be a hypocrite ( he hates how men treat women), ok!

But, regardless of everything that comes out of his mouth I need to protect me and my kids.

He's not a liar, but he's not my H anymore, so listener beware.

I'm going to look into classes tomorrow with my D18...oh she'll love that!

Maybe one or two classes and then a pt job. I need to meet new people. The two friends I have new me when I was 18yrs old. The're more like habitual than fun.

Thank God, I get out of depression on my own...I can't imagine going through what he is experiencing. I will continue to treat him kind...no one else does.