JKS, Thanks for your words of encouragement. They mean a lot. My W filed but told me she hasn't done anything to serve me yet. I think it has something to do with them still not knowing for sure if this is what they want. When all of this first happened W & I lived together for 3 months without her getting her own bank acct, moving out or filing. I really do think they are not sure plus it probably is nice to have the security of the spouse still there while they get a little "freedom" to what they please. I agree it's not fair to the LBS but it also gives us hope that maybe they do want us. I don't know, just some thoughts. I do know that we need to be happy too.
Let her have freedom. Maybe you have "freedom" too. Peace of mind will be without her in your head. When you start doing some of the things they are doing it reduces the importance of it. They get very angry too and will want to show they still possess you.
So confused. Most of the time I miss my W so much. And then there are times that I get so angry at her. There are just so many emotions that are constantly running through me. 99% of the time I miss the whole family together. I go and do things to keep busy but can't stop and think how much better it would be with the whole family there.
Went school shopping with D last night. On the way D told me she didn't want me to get her a backpack. She said my BIL's wife said she was going to get her one and decorate it with her(they just moved into town). This upset me because this is something that me & W had worked out and D was now sad. BIL's wife didn't check with anyone. They have their own kids. This is something that is important to me and now this person is just kind of taking it upon herself to do what they want. I appreciate that they are trying to be kind to D but they should check first. This person has always done this sort of thing. Making promises to D without checking with my W & I first and then not going through with them. And now the situation is more delicate.
Still feel down about the sitch, but I'm just focusing on business right now. W is moving out next Saturday. It will be empty at the house when she's gone but at least I will be able to be home. D is doing ok. School started for her and so she has that to keep her busy. I got served with divorce papers yesterday. Made all of this more real but it also is helping me to deal with it. Also, when I went out the other night I ran into some old friends and made some new ones. A very pretty woman also bought me a drink. Made me feel confident and good about myself. Something I hadn't felt in awhile. Made me feel like I was worth something and that I will be ok. People still like me for me. I am not jumping into anything at the moment, but it sure does help when someone sees you as nice, safe and likable. So like Dory in "Finding Nemo" says, "just keep swimming"
