Some days I feel the same way. However, I am going to keep trying. And I'd love for my H to hold me in his arms, but I know that is a bad idea and he is not ready.
And thanks for the advice you gave on the other post. I hadn't considered that H may not get mad at people he doesn't have an emotional connection with, which would explain why he doesn't get mad at his friends who do the same things that I do. I also believe that some of the things he says are out of guilt.
M44 H57 D17 (special needs) M 18 yrs Bomb 7/2/12 Still living together