Eric, it is my own insecurity, and I am not trying to find out more about OM. I have been patience (not enough, obviously), I have tried in different ways to enjoy time with W, but she is always saying no. She has been a bit cold for the past days, not wanting to do anything, quiet, and not even saying hello when I come home from work.
Yesterday, I got home early because we had planned to make dinner together, but she was already finishe with dinner and actually eating. A few minutes later of me getting home she said she was going out to her sister's place and took a plate with her. That bothered me pretty much, but I kept calm. She said she was going with her sister and that if I did not believe her I could go and check anytime. Pretty much that did it for me, still I kept calm and answered her that why was I going to do that because I was not that kind of man. I was getting ready to go run, and when I left home I DECIDED to check if she was at her sisters, what a set back. I went to the park and run for a while, and then I went to the movies. W called, and I did not answered, I called her after the movies and she said she was at a bar with her sister and a bunch of her cousins. This is getting me frustrated, she comes with thousands of excuses to do something simple with me, like going to the park, but out of nothing she takes off for hours and comes back home really late. I must say, I did not argue with her, I just told her that it was nice she had a good time.
Everything I do is for me, and I need to stick that in my head. The changes that I am making are for my well being and because of that everything will fall in their place. The feeling of frustration is because I want her to see what I am doing, and that is wrong, the things that I am doing are for me, again.
Eric, thanks man, like always your advice as the many others helping is gold.
