In all fairness, those words just kinda appeared on my post before they even really sunk into my brain. And I think it's some of my more powerful, insightful, concise thoughts on the subject... if I do say, quite humbly, myself...
hee hee hee
i love it when you are bashful KD.
you have this amazing knack - i'll come and write here, all solemn from a hard day - and you'll say one little thing and i have a big grin on my face!!
It is OK to plan on expectations. We just have to equally expect that things may not go as planned.
aah - another nugget!!
about putting up walls - so who else slept on the couch for months and months before BD, i wonder. what you describe i did too - except it was the guest br - and my excuse was that i had the sleep disorder and disturbed h a lot.
but the effect was the same. at the time i had no idea that that was a symptom of much much worse to come - now when i read your description, i realize too that my walls were up pretty high by then - h had done so many things to disappoint me by then - worst of all, the way i didn't feel supported by him during the years after the accident..
I know that wall, it's protected me before. And my past has allowed me to recognize it more easily. It's not easy to bring down. But one has to see it before one can begin to disassemble it.
did these words just appear on the post before you recognized them consciously , also?
so how's the disassembling going then?
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
