oh NLW - you are so sweet and i'm so sorry that you are going through the same thing.

and you are right in everything you say. just like he thought he'd feel better choosing ow over me almost 12 months ago, and then watching him be so miserable, and now he thinks this will make him feel better

it's rather odd why i am down. i know that in my post i talked about being down because of what he said last week. but i think a large part of me is down because i can feel myself giving up - i think it's just sadness, and i don't even know if i'm really giving up or not. too many mixed feelings all at once to really see yet. they will settle

i'm shifting - i'm not so careful about how i talk to him - all smile and happy happy. i'm being more honest about the mood i'm in. not to the extent of being snappy but just matter of fact...

but thanks for stopping by and giving me some support to not get too discouraged - especially when you are having a hard time too

((( )))
zig

me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"