i know i have more questions but i don't know what they are right now..
right now all i feel is bloody exhausted. mentally , physically and emotionally.
it's the first time really i've had a chance to sit down and start to respond today - but there are so many posts that i feel a bit overwhelmed
i feel sometimes, that i get into these conversations, and then i just go into overload.
why?
i have no idea. and now the conversation has veered off, and i feel stupid about taking it back to where it was 3 pages ago (talking about the other thread that KD started - forgot what it is called)
right now today - i just feel quite hopeless about the sitch with my h. i think i am facing finally in the last couple of days what he said to me last friday - that even if it doesn't work out with ow he still wants to file. (it's been sinking in slowly)
i thought of what denver wrote - that he had to hear the brutal truth and face it - and stayed up crying all night. i'm not doing that - but i am facing that right now, and i'm not even sure what to do next.
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
