New to DB

[hopefulinga]

I feel like I may be getting closer to emotionally detaching. I'm in tears, really don't want to look at H, tired of being treated like crap. I know deep down in there, a sweet and caring man exists, and that's what hurts. No matter what I say or try to do, I don't feel like I'm ever going to be able to thank him enough, or be nice enough in his eyes to compete with his female friends.