Interpretation of MWD and DR regarding infidelity

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I snooped and found a treasure trove because W did a poor job of covering her tracks. About all I missed was FB correspondence because OM had blocked her at that point and that deletes all your messages.

All the detail made me feel like total crap for a LONG time. My imagination filled in the worst possible interpretation of everything and I would fixate on it. You can't know everything, so all you'll get is bits and pieces, and for me, anyway, filling in the gaps was horrible and probably usually was overstated.

The weird thing is that I kept everything I found, and for the next 8 months would periodically pull it all out again and read it again. I wish I knew what drove me to do that, because it was literally like slamming your hand in a door every so often. What is the attraction to pursue that pain? That's something I haven't figured out about myself.

In any case, getting details can be torture.

My sister cheated on and divorced her husband, and he never asked any questions or snooped, he just accepted that his marriage was over and quietly moved on. I couldn't understand that at all at the time, but there's certainly bliss to be had in ignorance.

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