i am so going to see wanda jackson on friday, that it doesn't even begin to be a problem for me.
my love bank is truly depleted when it comes to h, and when i put the two events side by side: 1. being at in-laws with about 40 family members, smiling and "having" a good time while h disses me whenever he feels like it because he's uncomfortable to act nice to me around family. s disses me too, modeling h's behavior, mil giving me conspiratorial looks every few minutes etc etc, having to db with a houseful of people
2. going to see one hot inspirational chick who is still "puttin' in out there" in spades, with 4 strong women - 3 that i've never met - to a jazz club (always wanted to go) - really good music, dancing and just having fun and forgetting about the sitch for a few hours
i don't even have to think twice about it.
you don't refuse a gift when it's given to you. at least i've learned that now. there's a reason i got invited on this friday and not next or wednesday or saturday!!
i've made enough effort in that arena, with him and his family - and i'm feeling quite easy about not being there on friday.
oddly though, i am in a quandary about thursday and sunday and will post about that later
as for dragging KD to the blanket - i believe he's into the spiced rum stuff right now. and i don't believe he'll take kindly to dragging - feral cat syndrome there all the way
((((stronger))) hope you have a great day
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
