Forgiveness is not an easy skill. It takes time to develop those muscles. And as you start using them you'll get sore just like when you try to strengthen any other muscle. But in the end, you have a new strength that will serve you well.
I am so sorry for your kids and you. At some point, you may want to consider some family counseling to help them deal with these changes.
Getting your own job and place sounds like a great idea. You have every ability to stand on your own 2 feet and provide for yourself and your kids. Its what you can control and influence so take the reigns on it and go!
Me:45, W:45 S:16 D:13 M:22, T:25 Bomb: July 2010 Putting finances in order for "D" Continue to live in same home-separate rooms
