As to pit of hell depression, I am sure you are right, and for that I bear much responsibility which is one of the reasons this whole situation is killing me. You see, I take responsibility and beat myself up daily for the relationship with the little girl. I can tie each phase of our nuclear wars with songs he posted such as Nowhereman and Skin and Bones, to calls and messages to her after the wars. She validated his pain, told him that he is wonderful, manly, her knight in shining armor, how he did not deserve the pain, how I was crazy, how I had turned against him, how I was purposely trying to hurt him, how she needed him so much, how hurt she was for him, how bad things always happen to her and how he makes her smile and feel safe, how I deserved to die or at the least she would kick my A** for him-hahaha not at all likely or possible. And so uncharacteristically he lapped up that nonsense when before he never would have fallen for that. We used to laugh at such antics from the students in both our cases. Now he seems to get agitated after a few days of not speaking with her, and his depression is much worse then until he speaks with her and gets almost manic but still there is an underlying depression and negativity including comments about how he is a misanthrope and hates nearly everyone. Those are worse after he talks with her. I would love to strangle her for feeding his fantasies and depression as well, but then I would also have to strangle myself for setting a fire under the depression and magnifying the depression ten fold at least.
