Yeah it's easy to look back on things & blame this & blame that, but if I'm honest the R took a back seat to everything else in our lives. This is a mistake I'm learning from & would never want to repeat in any future relationships.
I'm not focusing on moving out, more moving on and getting back in touch with me again.
I'll be focused solely on my course & kids and it's not in my interests to force any moves in either direction.
Financially, Physically & Emotionally it is not a good time for me to move out, get a legal separation or file. I need to focus on my course, my kids & my well being. If my W wants to push ahead with any of these options then I will have to react to them.
One thing I feel really strongly about which includes my friends & family who give me support, is that it should be me in control of any timeline that affects me and not be influenced by anyone else.
This is how I feel today & have felt for the past 4 - 6 weeks, but as we all know things can change, things can happen in your sitch that demand immediate action.
I have noticed the dynamic changing between my W and I, in terms of pursuer & distancer. She seems a lot warmer and has even invited me out a couple of times with the kids lately. I'm not letting my guard down, because I'm sure it's just her way of enticing me in, so I will pursue her.
My kids have just gone out with their nan for a couple of hours, so I'm gonna fit my 2nd run of the week in.
There's a great free app on android & Iphone called my fitness pal which is really helping me stay on track this week & worth checking out.
Bill
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13
