W came by the house today to bring over S's karate uniform for his lesson tomorrow.
I asked her to come on in and eat supper with us. I was in the middle of cooking anyway. She said well it does smell good. I think I will.
We talked nonstop the whole time she was here. It was nice and effortless. Idk. Something just feels differnt. In a better sort of way.
She also feels a freedom here that I would not feel at her house. She kicks off her shoes and lays on the couch. Noses around the pantry and fridge for snacks and drinks. She just helps herself to whatever she feels like.
Now I don't mind that. Not at all. I want her to be comfortable here. It's just odd because I know that I would not feel relaxed enough to do those same things at her house.
Anyone else have the same experience?
She had asked about taking one of my pistols a while back before she moved. I said sure. I have taught her the safety aspects and we have been shooting many times together. She is a good shot and can rival my own skills with this particular weapon.
Well I made it a point not to be here when she moved out. Not to be spiteful, but to protect myself from having a breakdown moment in front of her. When she moved out she didn't take the gun with her.
Before leaving she asked about it again so I gave it to her. The gun, the case, and two mags full of ammo. She then asked if that was all the ammo I was going to give her. It took me back a little because... well 26 rounds should be more than plenty. I then told her that she could purchase more if need be.
In that fraction of a second it got my wheels turning that she might want shoot with OM. If there is one. That was my fear creeping in. I didn't let on. And put it out of my mind.
Anyway, when we discussed it the first time around, I told her that I wanted it back. When such a time came that she felt protected again. I didn't say more, but what I meant was when she was in a new R.
I have others that are of less sentimental value. I even offered to go gun shopping with her. But she feels most comfortable with this one. I am glad to, in a round about way, still provide protection.
Maybe I will see it again, maybe not.
She is a little bity thing, and I worry about her some. She travels alot. Lives in an apartment complex. Very vulnerable to the crazies. I think she is truly brave to embark on this journey on her on.
I feel better that she have it and not need it, than to need it and not have it.
