Last night went well. The kids DID NOT want to sing the Happy Birthday song to their dad. But the grandkids did, so we did, I just put a "?" candle on his cake.
I ended up not getting him a gift. I gave him a shoebox card. Same kind he gave me for my birthday. And I have just been not talking to him, except to answer questions.
After the kids left he asked me about getting the house on the market. I find it a bit disturbing that I can be so deeply depressed, mired down in my world and HE DOES NOT HAVE A CLUE!
I told him I am doing what I can. I am. I pick out a few tasks a day. In the old days I would have had it done 20 times over. Evidently I really am bi-polar. And my manic phase is no where to be found when I need it. My doc actually told me I am bi-polar 2 which is not the normal kind. Anyway, it explains a lot about Artistic me.
My new AD med is helping. But leaving me a little tired. Funny thing is that I have heard people say they don't like taking AD's because they take out the highs and the lows. I can feel the low being taken out. But I feel pretty happy at appropriate times.
When one of my kids or grand daughters says they love me, I feel good. When I complete a task I feel happy. Anyway, looks like I'll live!
Now I have another thing I'm hung up on. Should I change my last name back to my maiden name? Or keep the name I've gone by for 32 years? Make up a whole new name? Get a tattoo? Okay, just seeing who has read this far.
(If I do ever get a tattoo it is going to say: "Rookie Mistake".)
Anyway, would like to hear name stories. My DIL thinks I should keep the family name.
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
