I wouldn't even bother getting into those conversations if it weren't for my kids. Something inside me tells me it isn't right. It hits me so hard because my children are my world. To have someone come in and start taking on the role of their mother while I'm not around is heart wrenching... especially my baby. He is moving fast and he doesn't understand the effects that this has on everyone and I just have to sit back and let it happen. It's extremely hard not to say anything at all.
He's just so dang excited about his new R that he's trying on all the different scenarios he can with her because it makes it all that much more real. And it pushes me out of his life even more. But all the while his kids are so saddened by it. They tell me all the time... why can't daddy just come back? We just want to all be together again. In fact, my D6 said one day to me, why couldn't OW find a H that wasn't married? I said, I don't know.
I am in hell. I've said it before, but I cannot believe this is my life now.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
