Trying to save an R is not for sissy papa...feel the fustration and them let it go.
A few others things...
1) It may not seem this way right now but YOU will be OK - either way.
2) Often we must lose something to GAIN something.
3) Feelings change...you can feel angry today, happy tomorrow, sad the day after that.
4) It aint over till it is over!
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans