A Huddle of Turtles

[needgrace]

good morning sweet zig,

i love how you take the time to truly ponder and push yourself to greater self awareness.

the connection between your childhood and how you protect s may be significant. i wonder if you feel like it impacted your M at all?.. i think that awareness of our habitual defenses is important in being able to recognize and change.. i know that for me, my unconscious ways to "protect" myself ended up hurting my M..

i was wondering if a 180 would be to trust H to handle it..

it is so so so so ( and more so sos) hard to not seek out info about our spouse, especially when we get such little and such confusing info directly from them.. but i know that for me, it keeps me on that roller coaster and i can only start to get my balance again when i don't know.

love you, zig.